Today is our last full day together. I have had a range of emotions since Wednesday when it was determined they would go back to their mom. They have spent the night there several times and with the visits with other family members, I have missed having them some days. I am getting a taste of what it was like before they came though and it will be hard and good. The other day, when they were at their moms, the house was so quiet and there were traces of them everywhere. Empty bottles, wipes and diapers, little hands prints on the bathroom mirror and the happy face I helped her draw on the side of the truck when she was waiting for me to take Jake out. I understand why people who have lost loved ones want to get rid of every reminder. It is painful. However, I haven't lost them and that is solace to my heart. They won't remember. Jamie might have some memories because of the baby book I made for her, but Jake for sure will not remember that I was his first mommy for his first 4 months of life. It sucks. Period. But I wouldn't have it any other way!
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I can't even begin to express how much love I have for you!!!!
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